Epiphany

I've discovered that I'm not that great at coming up with titles for this thing, but I'm working on it. This morning I was sitting in Sunday School and to be perfectly honest, I didn't want to be there. I didn't feel good, I was really tired, I didn't like my outfit at all, my ankle really hurt from standing at football games, and I just wasn't happy. But I looked up and saw a poster for this thing called Shift. It said it was for juniors and seniors to learn about college and I'm guessing staying godly at it, and all that good stuff. Well, it said the conference was on April 19, and I thought, "That's almost at the end of the year." And then I realized that next year will be my last year of high school. Then that's it. I won't be going back. It hit me that the future is a lot closer than I think it is. And then I realized that I'm not making the memories I want to have for my high school career. I'm being lazy thinking that I have all the time in the world to make the most of my life right now. I don't want to remember high school as just a time in my life where I was stressed out and had a few good times. I know it sounds really cliche-ish and I don't like cliches that much, but I want to remember high school as being on fire for God and being sold out to Him. Yes, I love God and I'm not ashamed to say that I've been saved and washed by the pouring blood of God's son Jesus Christ. I guess a better way to put it is that I want to be passionate for God and the life he has planned for me. Some definitions of passion include "boundless enthusiasm" and "something that is desired intensely." I want to know enthusiasm that has no limits! I want to want something so intensively that it's what I live for! I guess my point is, we will never be in the same position or have the same opportunities that we have today. There's not time to wait until our workload or the pressure we're under or our new situations get easier or more comfortable. This is the time. I know this probably sounds like a common Wednesday night youth group sermon, and you're probably thinking, "Ok, Shari, you're behind. Everyone knows all this, get with the program," but I didn't believe it until I figured it out for myself. There's a possibility that I'm just making my situation dramatic, but I don't want the casual life that I've been leading to consume my memories. so basically, let's rise.


But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said:
"Wake up, O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you."
Be very careful, then, how you live, —not as unwise but as wise,
-Ephesians 5:13-15